Wow!! the past few weeks have been amazing?
Hmmm, adventurous and eye-opening?
And extremely stressful to say the least! Nothing like some mixed emotions :)
As optimistic as I try to be, always looking at the glass half full or the brighter side of things.. the past few weeks filled me with so many emotions I finally POPPED! I’m the kinda girl who thinks if I attend a football game our team will win, just because I’m so positive of the outcome :) But this month has really given me a run for my money!
For starters, my daughter is officially 18!!.
~drum roll~ (In my best ringleader voice) Step right up and see the amazing 18 year old girl! That’s right folks… the magic number 18, she now miraculously knows everything and I know nothing!
*sparkle in my eye/ gleam on my front tooth*
She moved out and in with her bff, that doesn’t sound so bad except the bff stands for “bad friend fiasco” sadly my daughter has befriended someone who has the “hate the world” attitude, and “you owe me everything” syndrome. This is so sad to me because I feel like I raised my daughter to love this world and work hard for what you want. My sweet little girl, that’s how I still see her, is very much a follower and I believe she is on a mission to find herself and make her own way. I’m all for that, but she’s following this bff and her ways and her ideas, and that makes my little heart sad. Soooo….. in an effort to support her, against my better judgment, my mother gave her a car and I gave her my blessings and let her move out with her things only weeks before her senior graduation. (May 16th)
Just in case you weren’t sure of how this has turned out, let me tell you. Her grades have dropped from As and Bs to Cs and Ds even some Fs!!! My daughter has had over a 3.0GPA the last 3 1/2 years, so you can understand why I feel a bit uneasy about this change. She has missed so many days of school, she is in jeopardy of not graduating, she wrecked her car and quit her job she had at sonic for over 8months!!!
Hard to see any glasses half full in this whirlwind of a free bird teenager, living her so-called life!! UGGHHH!!! Can we say rebel without a cause?!
Can you see it? The smoke, coming from this mommy’s eyes, ears, and nose?? My heart pounding, mind racing, and and and…. ROARRRRR!!!
Momma bear has arisen! Everybody look out!! Kids, co-workers, new boyfriends and bad friend fiasco’s step away from this momma bear! Wow, I’m actually feeling anxious re-living this up roar. Regrouping starts NOW.
We also adopted a kitten from the shelter at Christmas for Gaby, which she left with me when she moved out.
Cute sweet kitten awwww…. NOT!! She is a holy terror! I’m telling you a nightmare in broad daylight! We live in a small two bedroom apartment that she has basically taken over. She is a wild cat. We thought once she was spayed she would calm down, nope.
Not to mention guess who gets the lovely pleasure of removing her poop from our home?? Yep …you’re looking at her or, well, listening to her rant right now *big cheesy smile that has thank you written all over it*
And we can’t forget about the new sofa we had delivered last weekend. I’m thrilled to have a new family sofa for movie night and family game night.
Yay… they’re here, come in, place sofa here, and yes yes.. it looks so … so … umm… there is a piece of plastic poking out the back of my new family sofa!! (shock, horror, terror) The sofa that was going to gather the girls, the boyfriend and myself for some good times. Much needed good times to distract myself from the recent meltdown. Keep calm… and call the furniture store! They can’t get anyone out to “look” at it for over a week. FINE, I can deal with that. But talk about pile it on God ;)
Deep Breath…. 3,2,1
About a week later~
Grades are picking up and school is being attended. Project graduation in full force equals happy mother! The smoke is clearing :)
The car accident was not Gabys fault. A little old lady ran a stop sign and pulled out in front of my daughter. Gaby is fine but very upset about her car. What made the whole event more stressful than should have been was the little old lady’s ins did not want to cover the damage at 100% only 70%
I KNOW!!!! and yes I fought it to tears and argued with people around me, I talked to a lawyer, my ins co and her ins co. I went round for round a total of 23 days!!!
Apparently her ins co has the right to believe my daughter could have prevented the accident and by that belief they only paid 70% of my daughters damages. I even checked Gaby’s phone records to see if she could have possibly been on the phone texting or talking, which she was not! To make this long story a little shorter, I settled. Why? Because my sanity was being breached. I have bigger fish to fry, like accepting my daughter is 18 and is entitled to ruin her own life. I’ll be here when she needs me.
Through all this my wonderful boyfriend, (pulse quickens, cheeks redden, instant smile) has been amazing! He just seems to keep an even tone about himself. He put a smile on my younger daughters face last night. She loves Selena Gomez and he bought her tickets to an upcoming concert! She is ecstatic!! That makes me happy. But the big surprise won’t be known until the day of the concert, Cloie is going to meet her favorite star!! I can not wait to see the look on her face when I tell her the big news!!
And now back to our regularly scheduled life….