We Interrupt This Life.

Wow!! the past few weeks have been amazing?
No…no… Scary!
Hmmm, adventurous and eye-opening?
And extremely stressful to say the least! Nothing like some mixed emotions :)
As optimistic as I try to be, always looking at the glass half full or the brighter side of things.. the past few weeks filled me with so many emotions I finally POPPED! I’m the kinda girl who thinks if I attend a football game our team will win, just because I’m so positive of the outcome :) But this month has really given me a run for my money!
For starters, my daughter is officially 18!!.

~drum roll~ (In my best ringleader voice) Step right up and see the amazing 18 year old girl! That’s right folks… the magic number 18, she now miraculously knows everything and I know nothing!
*sparkle in my eye/ gleam on my front tooth*

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She moved out and in with her bff, that doesn’t sound so bad except the bff stands for “bad friend fiasco” sadly my daughter has befriended someone who has the “hate the world” attitude, and “you owe me everything” syndrome. This is so sad to me because I feel like I raised my daughter to love this world and work hard for what you want. My sweet little girl, that’s how I still see her, is very much a follower and I believe she is on a mission to find herself and make her own way. I’m all for that, but she’s following this bff and her ways and her ideas, and that makes my little heart sad. Soooo….. in an effort to support her, against my better judgment, my mother gave her a car and I gave her my blessings and let her move out with her things only weeks before her senior graduation. (May 16th)
Just in case you weren’t sure of how this has turned out, let me tell you. Her grades have dropped from As and Bs to Cs and Ds even some Fs!!! My daughter has had over a 3.0GPA the last 3 1/2 years, so you can understand why I feel a bit uneasy about this change. She has missed so many days of school, she is in jeopardy of not graduating, she wrecked her car and quit her job she had at sonic for over 8months!!!
Hard to see any glasses half full in this whirlwind of a free bird teenager, living her so-called life!! UGGHHH!!! Can we say rebel without a cause?!

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Can you see it? The smoke, coming from this mommy’s eyes, ears, and nose?? My heart pounding, mind racing, and and and…. ROARRRRR!!!
Momma bear has arisen! Everybody look out!! Kids, co-workers, new boyfriends and bad friend fiasco’s step away from this momma bear! Wow, I’m actually feeling anxious re-living this up roar. Regrouping starts NOW.

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We also adopted a kitten from the shelter at Christmas for Gaby, which she left with me when she moved out.

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Cute sweet kitten awwww…. NOT!! She is a holy terror! I’m telling you a nightmare in broad daylight! We live in a small two bedroom apartment that she has basically taken over. She is a wild cat. We thought once she was spayed she would calm down, nope.
Not to mention guess who gets the lovely pleasure of removing her poop from our home?? Yep …you’re looking at her or, well, listening to her rant right now *big cheesy smile that has thank you written all over it*

And we can’t forget about the new sofa we had delivered last weekend. I’m thrilled to have a new family sofa for movie night and family game night.
Yay… they’re here, come in, place sofa here, and yes yes.. it looks so … so … umm… there is a piece of plastic poking out the back of my new family sofa!! (shock, horror, terror) The sofa that was going to gather the girls, the boyfriend and myself for some good times. Much needed good times to distract myself from the recent meltdown. Keep calm… and call the furniture store! They can’t get anyone out to “look” at it for over a week. FINE, I can deal with that. But talk about pile it on God ;)

Deep Breath…. 3,2,1

About a week later~
Grades are picking up and school is being attended. Project graduation in full force equals happy mother! The smoke is clearing :)
The car accident was not Gabys fault. A little old lady ran a stop sign and pulled out in front of my daughter. Gaby is fine but very upset about her car. What made the whole event more stressful than should have been was the little old lady’s ins did not want to cover the damage at 100% only 70%
I KNOW!!!! and yes I fought it to tears and argued with people around me, I talked to a lawyer, my ins co and her ins co. I went round for round a total of 23 days!!!
Apparently her ins co has the right to believe my daughter could have prevented the accident and by that belief they only paid 70% of my daughters damages. I even checked Gaby’s phone records to see if she could have possibly been on the phone texting or talking, which she was not! To make this long story a little shorter, I settled. Why? Because my sanity was being breached. I have bigger fish to fry, like accepting my daughter is 18 and is entitled to ruin her own life. I’ll be here when she needs me.

Through all this my wonderful boyfriend, (pulse quickens, cheeks redden, instant smile) has been amazing! He just seems to keep an even tone about himself. He put a smile on my younger daughters face last night. She loves Selena Gomez and he bought her tickets to an upcoming concert! She is ecstatic!! That makes me happy. But the big surprise won’t be known until the day of the concert, Cloie is going to meet her favorite star!! I can not wait to see the look on her face when I tell her the big news!!

And now back to our regularly scheduled life….

Contentment…

   As I sit here relaxing…wine in hand and computer on lap,  wanting to write something to share , I realize how freaking happy I am!!  I feel peace with this moment.  I feel satisfaction with the day that unfolded and the path it took.  And now with my heart and mind full of accomplishment , and productivity, I’m trying to find the word for this feeling.  This feeling does not always come easy but tonight it feels so so good!  I am CONTENT.   When I say the word content or when I have the feeling of  full contentment I have feelings of peace, joy, love, happiness, and a satisfaction with simply being.  Just being here on my bed listening to my boyfriend put together a desk in the other room, my daughter harassing the cat and the yumminess of my wine (Riesling is best).

My definition of contentment:

“not feeling the need or want for anything.  Not a care in the world.”

*I decided to look up the “official” definition of the word… this is what I found.

http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/contentment

Seems so sterile :(  I mean compared to my definition, the almighty” Webster” does not really define the word.  This definition makes me wonder what your definition may be on the word.  To me the feeling of contentment is a grand accomplishment!!!  I do not feel content every day by any means, actually, I wish I could feel content everyday. It takes work to feel at peace with your life, to be thankful for the little things, and to not want more than we have.  Does anyone feel content everyday with their life? Just living life … just being?

Happiness Is Not A Desination… It Is A Way Of Life

~This must be the hardest thing to write about – ones self.

Helllloooo….

My name is Neely but I’m commonly known by my friends as Neels :) I have acquired a warm fuzzy feeling when people call me Neels, kinda like when a puppy hears its name, his ears perk up. Ok.. some background on Neels. I’m originally from a town called Chalmette, La. We are sometimes referred to as “yats”, mostly due to our accent, “Where yat?” In most surrounding areas like Metairie, Kenner and more popularly,  New Orleans we have a bit of a reputation. You really would have to live here to understand why, nothing bad, just inside jokes. Chalmetters have been and are still the butt end of southeast LA jokes. With that said, when asked I usually say I am from New Orleans as to avoid all the Chalmette banter!!

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New Orleans is truly amazing.. a city full of wonderful charm.. no place like it. I admit I’m a city girl at heart.

The sights, smells, food, music, outdoor concerts and cafe’s, the river, Bourbon St and 4am drink specials are all things to be expected! Just thinking about it makes me nostalgic. I could not possibly give enough detail or descriptions to give this city any justice. You just have to come visit for yourself!

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I did lose every material thing I owned in “Katrina” a.k.a “the storm”. I am not a victim.. I have never used my sad story to benefit myself. I am actually the opposite, when I hear a conversation begin with “how much water did you get?”, I run!! I would like to move on please!! The only thing.. and I mean the one and only thing that was tough to swallow was losing the baby pictures and memorabilia of my two  girls, baby pictures never to be seen again, only memories I try to refresh from time to time.

I have two wonderfully beautiful healthy daughters 14 & 18!! I know.. I know!!! My oldest is graduating in days and it has been one hell of a ride! It’s a very bitter-sweet situation (thats a whole other blog on teenage girls!!).

All in all they are the hearts and light that keep this mind and heart open to love and life! For the past ten years or so I have basically raised my girls on my own .. being a single mother is a challenge, but not without lessons learned. It has been a journey of growth, character and lessons on patience and unconditional love., making me who I am today and hopefully pointing my girls toward the right path.

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About a year ago I met a wonderful man. I have no clue where he came from but I call him angel, so I’m guessing only one place…  ;) I thank God everyday for my family and the blessings he has given me.

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I have only recently come to realize how much I have been rushing through my life, family, job, kids and relationships. I’m not sure if it came with age, maturity or wisdom but I have noticed how much I have missed along the way and that’s why I have decided to live life “on purpose” each and every day. One week at a time, one day at a time, one minute, one second, each thought or moment.

My posts, blogs and entries, or whatever you want to call them, are going to be true to my heart and mind as possible. I am by no means a professional writer nor will I pretend to be one. Doing this seems fun to me so please enjoy the ride with me!

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I originally wanted to start this blog with restaurant, music, food, movie and travel reviews ( which there will be!) but I have been inspired to write about my favorite quotes, life and new-found love as well!